#idk i personally believe religion is allowed to be fun

[freespiritlilith]

lilith is jewish and open ok. like moses. lilith is a synchretic figure already diffused between innumerable groups separated by time and space, connected by names and stories. it really makes me feel lonely unsafe and uncomfortable to be a jewish lilith worshipper here, like devil worship is somehow wrong now. ! demon worship is not wrong. Will it be antisemitic next to disagree with mosaic law? Will polytheism be antisemitic? Sodomy? idk its been worrying me more of late like its paralleling the societal move backwards w transphobia and sexphobia and conflation of not-antisemitism with real antisemitism like people who say any/all critique of israel makes u an antisemite!!(its doesnt)(neither does nonjews interacting with lilith) but with how the vibes are now!!!This is all going a sad direction :( ardent philosemitism can turn antisemitic too!!!

As a white gentile, I feel absolutely disgusted with people who share my status doing that to Jews. I hope they all fuck off and leave you all alone, its not hard to learn that you can't have something. I may think Lilith is cool, but that's it, I don't practice or worship with her cause she's not mine to do so. I seriously hope y'all get a reprieve from these people, having to fight just so people leave your religion alone sounds so very tiring, my condolences. None of you deserve what's happening to you

I'm not Jewish though a proud ally. But I hope my Jewish followers see this.

[lieslab]

Hoping this doesn't come off as insensitive but have you struggled with suicide before? Idk the way you wrote your last fic seems personal and maybe I'm looking to much into it. I hope your not struggling behind the scenes is what I'm trying to say ❣

It's not insensitive and honestly, I appreciate you checking in. I can happily reassure you that I'm thriving behind the scenes. Please don't worry about me so much, I'm okay <3

However, that drabble really did come from a personal place. At one point, I struggled a lot with being suicidal and attempting suicide, so the thoughts and feelings intertwined within the words, those are real. It's been a few years since I've had that mindset, but a few days ago, some memories came back and I wrote about them. I figured that they could probably help someone out there.

I never succeeded in my attempts and I'm so happy that I didn't die. I've grown a lot over the years and found meanings and purpose once more. I know that not everyone can say the same, so I was hoping it'd land with the people who need it most.

The world seems really dark and lonely at times, but you never know what's waiting for you. If I would have succeeded at an attempt, I never would have been able to create this page and write things for you all to enjoy.

I can't go back and tell my teenage self all the good things that have happened over the years. I can't save myself from going through growing pains and experiencing those harsh feelings, but I can try to write things and remind people that the winter in your head doesn't last forever. It's not cold forever and one day, you'll learn that better things await you.

Maybe this is sharing too much information. I don't know and maybe I just don't care. I used to cry myself to sleep and pray to a god that I didn't believe in to kill me. I used to self-harm because I thought I was a failure. I've attempted suicide more times than a person could imagine and I used to hate myself for failing, but god, I'm so glad I failed.

I could never see the sunlight through black tar dipped eyes, but I took some steps out of my comfort zone. I got the help I needed and for me, that started with a good therapist. Now I own a cat and she curls up in my lap when I write. I write silly fanfiction to remind people that good things still exist. I fell in love with a group that reminded me that love doesn't have to be biological.

I pursue my dreams and I daydream of falling in love. I enjoy early morning walks in the spring and some of my favorite memories are glued to Chicago. I love the city, but I also love the country. I grew up opening farm animals and if I ever have the chance to own them again, I'd take it in a heartbeat. I've learned to embrace my flaws instead of hate them. Life isn't forever and change happens too quickly sometimes.

It's okay to feel lost at times and it's okay to ask for help. There's nothing wrong with admitting defeat or feeling down. Emotions are complex, but I've learned that you don't have to get through life alone.

Fall in love with people. Fall in love with culture. Find a new religion or study a new language. Put your phone down and step outside. See the way the baristas smile at customers and watch the face of your librarian light up when you ask if they can recommend you a book. Engage in polite small talk with strangers and remind yourself that everyone has struggles, even the people who seem entirely put together from the outside.

You don't always feel the way you do when you're fifteen. Your death will come whenever the time is right, but until then, all we have is time. Make fun memories. Sing off-key and do the stupid dance moves. Take bad photos, document your adventures, and exist as loudly as you want to.

This is your life and you're allowed to exist.

[golbrocklovely]

To that one anon: idk about the others, but I personally do not have any problem with Malia. Fuck, i like that woman, cause she makes Colby happy and they look really cute together. I wish them nothing but happiness. But when it comes to over sexualization about certain stuff, like this proffesor/student or nun/priest, well i have my own opinions. I think I don’t have to explain first one, but with the second one all i have to say is that back in the days i used to be very religious, i am less now, although i cannot say that i am an atheist, cause i am not and i always took very seriously any kind of mockery/making fun of/sexualization of any religion. It comes from not even a place of once being a big believer and praying almost every night, but even just the fact that to me religion is something that should always be respected and not used in weird ways or made fun of. And i am talking bout any type.

And to the owner of this blog: i already know your opinion on that, so don’t worry you don’t have to explain again and waste your precious time on me. I just wanted to point out that even though there are a lot of people who hate Malia or Colby and will hold onto anything just to send them hate, while they don’t necessarily care about the problem, there’s still people who just genuinely were disappointed and hurt by their choice of a costume. It doesn’t come from a place of hate (at least not from me). We just have different opinions on that and see it as disrespectful/wrong.

sorry for the delayed response.

this will be the last time i talk about these costumes strictly bc it's getting old at this point lol

but if yall want to still talk about them, go ahead. i just won't be answering asks about it.

i understand why you feel that way about religions. personally, i think it's healthy to mock religions, especially those of the christian variety. half the world has been colonized, pillaged, and changed bc of said religion, and in return poking fun at it should be allowed. but that goes for any religion in my book. i also think mocking a religion is different than mocking the deity that is the head of said religion. bc at the end of the day, while we can look at the bible (for example) and say it's god's word…. it's not. it was written by a bunch of men eons ago that couldn't even agree what god himself apparently said or did, which is why there are multiple versions. and it's also been translated so many times, it's not even remotely the same text anymore. and it's been changed in recent history too, so even if it was god's word, certain things have been changed to fit the narrative of those selling these books ie them changing "man shall not lay with boys" to "man shall not lay with other men" just in time to make homosexuality a mental disorder in the 40s.

and as i've stated before, ppl in their own religion make a mockery of their religion way more than those not in said religion, but that's just how i feel.

and i agree with you, there definitely were ppl that were upset at malia and colby that aren't constant haters, sure. i'm not gonna deny that. however, the ones the MOST opposed to this, the ones claiming malia and colby were creeps and pedos are the ones that have hated them for months. those are the ppl i'm referring to. bc to me, they aren't actually upset. they just hate them, and are finding something to complain about once again. bc at the end of the day it's not about the costumes for them, it's about the ppl in the costumes.

and if you're not someone that's been hating them since day one, nothing i've said since the beginning is about you. and sometimes in situations like this, we will just have to agree to disagree.

[earthgrudgefear]

hidan!!! for the ask game

YES right to it

obviously this is going to be a long post

you've been warned !

favorite thing about them: oh man. i think he's a really unique character. he's only like 2% justified in his anger and he makes it everyone else's problem. he's never depicted as anything BUT evil. the shinobi world is insane right? toddlers are raised as soldiers the second they can hold a knife. and so was he, no different from the rest of them. and the series Doesn't like to push that blame onto people, really early on you hear about all the awful things zabuza did and at the end of their battle he still dies as a respectable shinobi. BUT from start to end with hidan he is ONLY bad. he's doing this for FUN he's not doing it for a mission, he's not doing it because he needs to do it to survive like it was NEVER in question that this guy is JUST EVIL. but you CAN find these human sides to him. he has a Real bond with kakuzu, like they Actually are concerned for each other. in Akatsuki Hiden he meets a kid and he forms a bond with That Kid to the point of giving him funeral rites (burial rites?) when he dies. not as a sacrifice but as someone he cared about. when his village turned on him and he felt REAL betrayal. if he didn't care about them to some extent, he wouldn't still be mad about it. it's just FASCINATING.

least favorite thing about them: i don't even think there's anything i don't like about him. he's so fucking annoying and if i had to deal with him i'd try to kill him too BUT because i don't have to deal with him he's my best friend i like him SO much

favorite line: to be so transparent i like when he's picking on kakuzu for keeping the headband for him.

AND if i can use the book - i like this, it's less about the line itself but more about the repetition of it. like this is how they start every fight and i just think that's delightful

brOTP: y'all already know it's kisame. my defense for this has absolutely no basis in their interactions because honestly? kisame doesn't care for him too much. HOWEVER kisame is the easiest akatsuki member to get along with and hidan is basically impossible to get along with. i think it's a good match.

OTP: kakuhida, motherfuckers. they're everything to me. they were on screen for all of three seconds and i already knew that was it. i haven't been normal about them since. and they're canon as far as i'm concerned. stated or not they were Something.

nOTP: k*nan (sorry for censoring you name queen i don't want it to be searchable) i have such a Visceral reaction to them together i Cannot stand it. their characterization is so BUTCHERED for that ship that they become Unrecognizable. and i don't fucking get it like ??? yes they're both hot PICK ANYONE ELSE. also shipping him with any of the kids. like. that's not cute. he's young but he's not that young also holy shit they don't deserve that anyway

random headcanon: i probably mentioned this somewhere before and it's so easy but i think his favorite color's pink. like red sure because i mean look at him but also. Pink. i like pink for him.

unpopular opinion: i've touched on this before i don't think jashinism is real. i think he made it up and i think maybe he's convinced himself it's real. but i don't think there is a single other person who's ever heard of or tried to join the religion before. there's the kid i mentioned from the book but he learned straight from hidan, and then goddamned ryuki from boruto who i swear to God the writers wanted him to literally be hidan but they weren't allowed. neither of which really compel me to believe it. it just doesn't make tons of sense

song i associate with them: ouuh choke on one another death spells. that's been a big one recently

favorite picture of them:

favorite's a big word but i had this one saved to my phone which is probably good enough

OKAY 10000 points if you made it to the end you win idk what you win but you win

[puppbun]

Doing that Assumption this because I this it's fascinating and quite brave of you. I only went back like 9 days/ You post alot but so far I have gather this.

You may be shy or easily flustered. You enjoy waiting for your pleasure, especially if the wait makes it more intense or someone benefits from seeing you struggle. You may like overstim. You seem pretty submissive with a great need to please that some ppl may take for granted. You're people pleaser nature may make it difficult for you to say no. You may either be touch starved or have a love language of physical touch, words of affirmation though this may fight with you love of humiliation and degradation kinks, and quality time. You may be selective with who you welcome into your personal space but enjoy that person was they are there even if you aren't able to verbalize it often. You like puns, prop comedy, and situational funnies ( Idk how to explain this). Physical indicators,smell body temp, etc of attraction are enjoyed by you and I believe are meant to point to not being on a hormonal contraceptive ( though that may be a bit too invasive. and typing it now does feel low key creepy). You probably prefer moderate temps with light breezes and mild frost for which you can wear sweaters but don't have to deal with intense cold. You're open to BDSM and kink positive, even with those that may not resonate with you. You enjoy when ppl are open honest with there kinks if they are comfortable with that. You enjoy ownership and may prefer a caretaker/little or pet dynamic. You may like sense deprivation and may enjoy giving complete control over to your partner, trusting that they will know your limits. You may prefer t4t relationships. You don't mind getting hurt for loved ones. You enjoy liberal affection and would prefer blurred lines between lovers and friends. You may enjoy politics but not for debate but for the way it may explain universal human experiences as you care greatly about social welfare(as if how well humans are doing). You are climate conscious and may enjoy green spaces[not sure what I meant here. maybe you like plants or hiking. idk]. You are an artist. You're a furry and may have interesting views on humanity and what makes someone human. [I best explained this to myself as if you were playing Detroit Becoming Human you would be on the side of the androids. If you've read Sophie's World you probably would have cried at the end when Sophie asks you not to close the book so she can live]. With this vein of thought you would be open to a non human relationship if that person was able to pass the are they a human test. You are a monster fucker/fuckee. You may have struggled with depression, anxiety, and imposter syndrome. Including things like burn out, executive dysfunction, or procrastination. You like music, art and anime. You may even like to sing or at least have a really great appreciation for music, song writing or catchy tunes. You support piracy and recreational drug use whether for you or others if they choose so. You're against censorship. You like pink and fluffy things and white furniture because you want to color/design it. You may learn towards erotic text over images, but you most likely do consume hentai and it's derivatives. You may enjoy exhibition. You really like art and may even enjoy playing games. You may believe in spirituality but not religion as you may come from a highly religious area or family. Overall reads shy at first until comfortable. Very kind as in afraid to impose on others because you may not feel like you are allowed to do that. A good, caring friend that enjoys little knick knacks and understand how ppl view things.

Hope you enjoy my random assumptions about you. I thought this was fun and played detective as if you were a book character. Hope you don't mind or feel offended. I will say though at some point it seemed like I was just making up shit but like I guess that's what assumptions are.

Peace out and have an amazing day.

wahhh- okay so this is a lot-

honestly ive had to reread it a few times becuase i thought I was making stuff up as i was reading it but you are reallyREALLY accurate??? >/////<

Thank you again for the ask! <3

[lil-ms-dipst]

Oh boy time for a bit of a rant here.

I grew up relatively religious. My parents are very religious but they never really enforced it on me (something I very much appreciate them for). However I used to frequent church. Children's activities and such. The main things I remember from going to church are um.. a priest telling me to not chew my nails because there's worm eggs under your nails and you'd get worms yourself. Second was I was fixated on The Binding of Isaac (the game, not the story the game gets the name from lol) and infodumped the like game theory video summarizing the lore of the game to a church worker and they were horrified. They told me to never play it again. Um like at least 10 years later here I am playing it.

Anyway I never have had a problem with religion. As long as you don't use it as a justification to hurt others I don't care what you believe in. Have fun go crazy whatever.

Back around 2020 my grandma got diagnosed with ALS. I never knew grandma that personally but watching her go from a fully independent human being into a literal husk of a person who has to use her eyes to type onto a fucking ipad to get it to say out loud what she wants to say really messed me up mentally. In my mind I can't understand a god who would let ALS and other illnesses be a thing. She passed in 2022 btw. I'm fine, mom is still struggling though. I also don't understand a god that would accept racism and allow it to be so rampant and other things. It makes no sense. "Free will" if you want but idk if I see someone being an asshole to someone else I'd like for something to be done about it.

As far as religion concerns me personally, even if there is a God or something out there, I don't think they are worth believing in.

feel free to elaborate if you’re comfy with it

[dio-breaker]

A Meme Inspired Dio to get on their Weird Pulpit

I will never understand how people can just spontaneously talk to strangers without some kind of social prompt. Like, I've never met most of you and even the ones I have I met online through shitposting mostly. Some people just seem to have a sense for how to spot people they'd vibe with and I don't really know how to do that IRL. Like, I enjoy peoplewatching sometimes, but I don't really want them to *see* me, y'know? I don't know this person, I have no reason to interact with them, I just kind of assume our interactions would not be very satisfying for either of us. I feel like as a person I'm kind of an acquired taste. You have to really enjoy my weird infodumps and bizarre dry humor where I laugh at things that are explicitly not meant to be funny or are overly serious. Like, I enjoy learning about history and religion and culture and all of that, but ultimately it kinda scratches the same itch that video game lore does. It sounds made up a lot of the time especially when it comes to religious belief and kinda silly, but also really cool and badass and interesting. I'm kinda laughing at what these people believe, but the thing they believe is fun for me to read about. Like, that's a weird way to look at the world. I know that. I try my best not to be directly disrespectful, I'm not judging them for believing in silly things necessarily, but I do think most religious belief is kinda silly. People find comfort and guidance and community in it and most people are born into their religion, I just don't get how they don't understand that their beliefs are kinda silly. Like, I'm relatively certain that if someone got killed in some kind of Star Wars fandom feud, we would all kinda laugh at that. It would be tragic and sad, but weird that someone cared that much about a debate over whether Darth Vader or Darth Revan was the more powerful force user. Yet if you make it some kinda religious thing, suddenly people take it suuuuper seriously because it sounds really cool and deep and poetic, and sometimes it is, but usually it's just describing things in really obtuse ways because it's a platonic dialogue that was never meant to be taken literally in the first place and has been translated through at least three languages and two paradigm shifts before it reached you. That doesn't make the guidance and comfort you get from it any less meaningful, it's the same kinda comfort and guidance people find in Star Wars, it's why fandom debates get so heated. People care about this stuff, but they inherently know it's silly. It's fictional. There are no stakes in a debate over whether red lightsaber crystals are weaker somehow or if the weird dark horse independent comic series where that was introduced is even canon anymore, like, shit doesn't matter. But people care about it as if it does. They don't generally go on to kill each other over it. Death threats do get thrown around, but rarely does that threat hold any weight, the internet just allows people to get away with that shit and sometimes people are assholes. idk wtf I am saying or if I have a point here, that meme just made me think all this stuff and I had to get it out. Something about meeting new people to vibe with and it being hard because I'm weird.

[holydivers]

talking about my tavs (and durge) because i can...2!

also game spoilers abound

riose. he/him, half-drow, necromancer warlock, acolyte backstory. one level in cleric of eilistraee for roleplaying

riose is a follower of eilistraee and a bleeding heart pacifist, which ties into his necromancy - he sees utilizing the dead, whose souls have since moved on, as a way to preserve the lives of the living by allowing them to replace living fighters in events where combat can't be avoided. he believes strongly in protecting life, no matter how questionable the person is, unless killing is absolutely necessary. which is how he immediately got killed by a mindflayer. and then again by a vampire a few nights later. honestly he's more of an accidental menace to the party than my actual selfish chaotic characters. oops!

his charisma is dogshit, so despite trying so desperately for pacifism he's accidentally caused way more conflict than most of my other tavs. he's really struggling out here. also only being half-drow means he doesn't get the inherent differential treatment characters like xun'e get, which bypasses goblin aggression, but people still give him shit for being half drow

his life fucking sucks

anyway i'm still working on his background - i want to give him a human parent and a drow parent in a way that's potentially actually interesting and not just some stupid or shitty bullshit, and thinking about how he eventually came to the church of eilistraee. i'm having trouble settling on anything, though, especially incorporating the necromancy thing - where does a good character generally even learn necromancy? i don't imagine there are necromantic books just sitting around, so i think a reformed villain parent would be fun...(make it the human parent contrasting to the actually pretty normal drow parent? could be funny)

but anyway everyone except for wyll and karlach hates him. he's off-putting and is trying really hard not to be That Guy but is having a difficult time not bringing up his religion constantly and wanting to pray for people. though it's almost circled around to being sort of endearing and at least he's useful as a ridiculously tall meat shield. with low strength bc he's a wizard

he's romancing wyll. also the church of eilistraee apparently do interpretative dance to their goddess every night so that's gonna be a cute little tie-in. like yes wyll he would LOVE to dance but maybe he's not used to your kind of dancing (he's got some dancing naked in the moonlight hippie shit bc that's how eilistraee is apparently)

on the other end of the spectrum is joy. they/them. some sort of tiefling idr, battle master fighter, haunted one background

so like as a durge they don't have much backstory aside from, y'know, the canon. i have another durge who resists the urge (but he's also pretty boring and has no personality <3 idk i'm not super inspired by durge since the amnesia and canon backstory feels rather restricting. i'll figure it out) but was like ok well i'll make one who indulges the urge and play for as long as i can stand it before being mean in a video game becomes too much for me

the out of universe reason for joy only resisting the urge is that even when doing my best to be mean i don't want to kill any of my companions. the in-universe reason is that they initially just really wanted to see someone turn into a mindflayer bc they thought it sounded cool as hell

though obviously they don't have much of a history of being friends or allies to people, they become rather enamored with having a posse and become very indulgent toward their allies. well, the allies who remained after they slaughtered the grove that is

while they do indulge the urge most times the dialogue options allow me to, they're not necessarily that evil outside of that - if the urge isn't particularly calling for blood they're weirdly capable of being relatively chill, though still an asshole. (they gave the prisoner in the goblin camp and healing potion and let him go. after torturing him a lot first for no reason, of course, but still)

hilariously shadowheart initially HATED them and told them they were only good as a meatshield. eventually she warmed up to them. somehow. lae'zel thinks they're too indulgent and chaotic but minthara thinks they're alright at least

though joy did become besties with astarion, joy was drawn towards gale, who talked a lot of shit when joy killed alfira but then sure was weirdly ok with it when joy thought about kissing him during their moment in the weave (honestly the kissing thought was mostly to avoid projecting the immediately obvious thoughts about dismemberment, and joy is trying not to threaten their friends! honest!)

and he didn't react to torturing that guy. and really didn't seem to mind joy biting another guy's toe straight off. and joy sees that dark streak of ambition and is delighted. and even after the slaughter at the grove, gale stays, and in the shadow-cursed lands he's even made comments about how attractive they look after a battle....they didn't even have to try to manipulate him or anything he's out here happily going down a corruption arc all by himself.

tbh i chickened out and initially decided that they'd resent sceleritas telling them what to do and have them not kill isobel but. well. i think i'm gonna go through and commit and get that slayer form. esp since jaheira kept fucking dying at moonrise no matter how hard i tried to keep her alive. we'll see if i have the willpower to have astarion and shart go down their bad character routes.

(i hate ascension but the dynamic of "exes but still friends" in the supervillain context is really funny. esp considering how dogshit astarion definitely would be at being a vampire lord. sorry no i'm not helping you take over baldur's gate we're not even an item anymore i'm too busy helping my boyfriend defy the gods or w/e he's doing <3 taking over baldur's gate is small potatoes. i'll still come over and we can disembowel ppl together if you want. make an afternoon out of it.)

in the end they'll probably reject bhaal? probably? again i feel like i maybe should just commit to going fully evil route but i kinda like the idea that they do save the city and everyone has to put up with this wretched piece of shit who no one likes being the hero and trying to install their flop boyfriend as the new god of magic or whatever.

joy sucks but i kinda love them it's just hilarious how terrible they are.